CD39 - Stuck in Limboland still

Hi ladies!!

So today it's CD39 and I am feeling extremely tired...

I started having waves of very very light and dull cramps..

Also notice that I'm having lower back pain.. Mostly on the sides and not at the center where the spine runs.. usually that's the case..

I also notice that I am having this rumbling, vibrating, bubbling gases sensation on my lower abdomen these past few days.. Feeling bloated and 'hard' on the lower abdomen region..

And I've notice that my thighs nearing to the knee cap/joints, has been aching since 2 days ago.. I wasn't sure if it was the cold temperature that I'm in..

Once awhile, I felt like boobs are aching.. other times, it's normal...

Gosh... I have no idea what's going on! Could the Vitex making my cycle haywired?

Also, I do feel some aches at the side of my boobs once a while...

Not much to update... I really wish this would turn out what we wanted... We DTD on CD36 just in case..LOL!!

It's been soooo long we waited for this!

Also, I've rescheduled my RE appointment to next month.. I wasn't feeling the need to be consulted right now.. I just wanna get the answer..

So yeah!! Will update you guys again on the following week.. If I were to calculate my weeks from CD1, I should be 5 weeks 5 days now.. Let's see how's the outcome yes...

Till then!!

CD37 - No Cramps & No AF Still

......And still Negative on the prenancy test...

Ok.. I assume that my cycle are going haywire right now.. Today is Monday and I've started taking in Vitex again for the next 3 weeks.

Let's see what symptoms I can pinpoint..

- Tired
- Hungry
- Not much cm down there
- Increased Heart rate
- Sleepy
- Some sharp pain at sides of pelvic
- Acne
- Motion Sickness on bus (Dizzy & nausea)
- Skin itches
- Bloated
- Hearburn pain when lying down to bed

Basically it's the same symptoms during my PMS, but this round, no cramps at all..

Hmm... I was so keen to get a blood test done in my clinic but I'm gonna give another week a go.. To see in case if AF decide to come..

Not sure if Vitex was the caused of it.. Hmm...

Well I'm at work right now.. Just had my waffles for lunch..

Really hope this waiting ends fast... And I am hoping for the best!

Will update soonest ladies!!

I do have an appointment this coming Wednesday! Will check with them on this..

Take care!!

CD 35 - No Cramps, No AF

Heyyy ladies!!

So today, I am at work and I am feeling super tired!

Maybe because I've just scanned over 300 pages of patient details for compiling..
Urgh... Ma eyes are sore!! I believe I had chalazion due to these..

So yes! Today is CD 35... And like last cycle, I was suppose to have roughly around these days to get my AF geared up..

So far no cramps, just diarrhoea, acne on scalps, feeling hungry, sleepy even after a good 6-8 hours of rest.. Maybe it's just work that makes me tired.. And discharges which is currently not so much anymore.. Hmmm..

Also, I've stopped taking in Vitex for this week. Take daily for 3 weeks, 1 week break then resume back another 3 weeks.

Talking about doing pregnancy test this late, still negative but I don't know if I might have ovulated late this cycle.. Well we shall see..

There isn't much updates or changes lately.. apart from feeling sleepy and frequent diarrhoea, i am all good.. But i realised that I'm having alot of left side chest pain.. I have a strong feeling it's gastric reflux or heartburn. Because when I turn to my right side when sleeping, it hurts.. But when I turn over to the left, felt wayy better.. Hmm... Must be the amount we ate! LOL!!

Today, started to feel some lower back pain and slightly bodyaches..

I just hope that my cycles are getting back regularly even without any medications to enhance it.. But we shall see this cycle yes..

So that's all for this blog. I'm sorry if there isn't much content. But still, I will update soon next week yes!


Have a blessed weekend ladies!!

CD23 - Some Random Updates

Hey Ladies!!

It's CD23 and I am feeling lazyyyyy & tireeddddd & not much motivation going on..

So today, Mountain Bear & I DTD spontaneously (LOL!!!!) and it was a surprise to the addition session.. in case my egg decide to pop out these few days..

So anyway, I recalled having weird dreams, dreamt that my cousin was crying when I ask him if his wife was pregnant already and he said, not yet, crying.. And I dreamt I was kidnap and wanted to escape trying to unlock the door when Mountain bear decide to wake me up! LOL!! And I dreamt a big snake (python i think?) swallowed a wombat and his shape outline looked like a box, sneaking in our piles of clothings.. I didn't felt any threat with the snake, like it wasn't meant to cause harm.. Oh well.. It's just a dream but it was intensed..

Been having lower abdominal cramps and some fluttering sensations.. Like tiny bubbles rolling and bursting in my abdominal.. Extreme motion sickness on bus lately.. feeling nausea still every single time on the bus.. I'm never like this..

So past weekend, my in laws decide to drop by and they cooked for us a dish that me & mountain bear had been craving for.. It was so yummy! We finished up the dishes that night itself.. It was nice seeing them.. Been quite sometime we had not meet up for a casual chit chat session. They were pretty lonely after we moved out.. We've been pretty busy ourselves with work..

Currently, at work, just finish with my consultation sessions and I am feeling super sleepy, taking my Hot Red Date Tea now... Raining and it's such a nice weather to sleep in.. I just can't wait to get home and sleep!!! But I am craving for some red meat!! It's been awhile I have not had it.. Gonna grab some "SOUP KAMBING" on the way back home later.. Just maybe... hehehe..

I am still taking in my Vitex once a day.. maybe these symptoms that I'm having... these nausea & motion sickness could be caused by Vitex? As it's increase the progesterone level, causing some hormonal changes? I'm not sure about that but, clearly I am having these symptoms..

Urghhh!!! Feeling easily irritated..  I assume that I am currently 8dpo (taking CD15 as O day). Seen some whitish sticky slippery cervical mucus.. Some throat discomfort, slight headache & itchy skin.. How are you ladies doing with ya fertility cycle?

I just wanted to grab the chance to key in some notes/symptoms whenever I can, trying to keep the blog updated frequently, :)

Till then ladies!! I will update you guys soon!! Most probably on CD25/CD26.. Take care & blessed days ahead to all!!

CD21 (08/09/18) #1 Vitex

Hi Ladies!!

It's September now and goshh... I'm halfway through my 1st cycle on Vitex!!

Here are the updates I would like to share..

So I'm relying on my Ovia app here for my #1 cycle and also match it with my symptoms and also my cervical mucus. So far during my fertile period (highlighted in green), i do see creamy mucus & EWCM texture forming.. Accompanied with right & left pelvis cramps, aching and pulling sensations.

As you can see on this diagram, on the CD1 (19/08/18), we were Doing The Deed (DTD) in the morning with cramps which then followed by AF arriving in the night.. Super sad!! But hey! I had a new cycle to start on! So on CD5 (23/8/18) we started DTD followed by CD8 (26/8/18)..

So coming into the new month, We covered CD14 (01/09/18), CD17 (04/09/18) and yesterday too CD20 (07/09/18).. But i wanna share something different on CD17 (04/09/18) which I never had before.. I started having cramps about 5-10mins after we DTD.. I was resting with pillow on my lower back, I honestly felt like my uterus was being blow up..

It's the same sensation like the time when i had the HSG procedure when the doctor inserted foams/dye/saline into my uterus.. that kind of cramps! And i felt as if my cervix were low when we DTD.. I could feel it's different down there.. And the cramps were on the lower abdomen region..  But after that one cramp, it was gone..

I notice since 03/09/18, I started having cramps on both pelvic area.. I have no idea if that's ovulation cramps, but I recalled that when I coughed that one time, i could feel a poking pain on my left pevic region.. I wonder what was that?? But then, till today, nothing like that had happened again.. So wanted to convinced Mountain Bear that we need to do a closing ceremony of DTD on CD20 as the chart stated my fertile period is coming to an end.. LOL!! Actually he initiated that we had it.. LOL!! His instinct is same as mine.. LOL!

So I am not going to do a blood test on CD21 for this cycle as it's my #1 Vitex cycle! Will definitely do it on my next cycle.

Plus, I was so happy to find out that my friend is finally pregnant after ton and tons of IUI & IVF done for her.. She is 34 and her hubby is 35 and they went for IUI, failed, IVF twice which failed but alhamdulilah her 3rd IVF was successful!! I was so happy for her, the poking, injecting of hormones and drugs and probing of instruments into her, she went through alot.. I even ask myself if i'm mentally prepared to have all these injections and probing to be performed on me, just to have a child in me.. Am i strong enough to go through it?

I had a scheduled appointment this coming 26/09/18 with my Gynae RE and I would like to discuss on having IUI done in December 2018.. I've asked Mountain bear, "let's give Oct & Nov another chance for us to try naturally before we go for IUI.. He agreed with a bear hug given to me.. Alhamdulilah, thank you Allah for this..

So far, not much cramps for today.. But I had few sessions of nausea when taking the bus ride home which I never had before.. Been about 4-5 episodes of them.. I recalled having insomnia few days ago.. I just can't fall asleep... Kept turning and turning.. Still won't fall asleep..

Oh boyy... The things we do to get that lil one in us... The wait... the emotions... the talk.... the procedure.... the sacrifices....

not those kind of sacrifice which you go to Bomoh or what...

But the kinds where you need to give and take on situation and ensure that you are doing it for yourself and not for other, having your partner with you, understanding you and u did the same likewise, changes in lifestyles and all that could potentially harm your conceiving trials, stresses from work and the  makcik minah bawangs... LOL!!

But yes, we women are strong, we will try our best to get this done! I have a strong feeling me and Mountain bear are gonna be parents definitely! If we are not meant to be one, I'm sure Allah will stop telling us to try for it and redha.. But currently, it felt that He wants us to continue going for it! Keep hoping and hoping! Now may not be the good time, but soon it will!!

To my ladies, hang in there.. Age is just a number, time is just a period to pass on.. If Allah says Kun Faya Kun, it will happen..

Have a great day!!

Will update soonest!! Hopefully AF won't show up on the 19th September 2018..