CD56 (13/10/18) - AF is HERE!!!!

Soooo!! Exactly 56 days later, I manage to have my menses and ohh boyy it feels good to see her after a long month with no actual outcome. Bloated like whatttt........

I manage to have my menses without taking any inducer meds which is great! Although I have requested from my RE office for a set. So yeah... As much as I don't want to see her on a period where I wish I was gonna be pregnant, but on the other hand, I was glad to see her afterall..

So on the 31st Oct, I will be visiting my RE and I have decided to go for an IUI first. Because I feel that, let's give that IUI a chance.. Who knows, with God's will, we could get conceived.

So it has been a week after my menses came.. I must say, this cycle, my "output" isn't much.. It's all brown/blackish and fresh blood afterward for the next 4 days.. minimal flow.. Hmm... I was abit bothered by the output.. I'm not sure if the Vitex has caused it or I'm having an anovulatory cycle which cause such flows..

Urgh... It sucks waiting to know when will I get pregnant... It aches.. But I enjoy having long hours of uninterrupted sleeps for the meanwhile with Mountain Bear.. LOL!!!

Also, we are having alot of stuffs to be done.. With the moving of homes and such.. I really feel that Allah has made a beautiful plan for us.. I feel that our time will come to have a family of our own. Knowing that my mom will be moving nearer to us in the near future, I could sent my child there when I am at work! And our worries on finances would be settled by then!

So I will update you ladies on my journey with IUI procedure next.. The Do's & Don't, the prices and step by step procedures.

Till then ladies!! Bye!!

CD48 - UPT BFN, OPK + No AF Still

Hi Ladies!!

Ohhh....Maaa.....Gawddd......

I am still in limboland and no signs of cramps or bleeding still!

This is amazing... LOL!! Amazingly irritating! LOL!!!

So I was pretty curious on why am I having this delay..

I was not sure if the Vitex has anything to do with this...

It either worked or it messed it up BIG TIME...

Somehow, I was still feeling nausea and dizziness which lasted for the past 4 days still..

I was even on MC on Monday & Tuesday because a quick turn around caused my vision to be "unstable".. I don't know but I know it was not something normal..

So today is CD48, I decide to have my bloods drawn. I am sooo frustrated to know why this is happening unless if the reason is, obviously I am finally pregnant.. But... Let's try not to go there just yet.

Had the Progesterone & BETA HCG done and boyy.. I've received the results..

I am NOT PREGNANT............*Sad emoji*

And my PROGESTERONE is 2.0nmol/L.. Which is damnnnnnn low.....

Urghhhh..... I honestly felt such heavy feeling in my stomach when reading the results...

Guess I need to find a way to induce my menses... Or just wait.....

Trying to think positive, maybe I've ovulated late? And maybe the level is still low....?

I don't know... I just feel garbage right now....

Maybe there is no chance that I can be pregnant naturally...

I think it's time to try and have the next step done...

Getting IUI done...

It's super depressing when you really hope a delay in your period indicate a good news.. But for someone who has PCOS, it's something to expect... But I refuse to believe that..

Urghhh........I miss Mountain Bear right now... I just wish to have him here with me when I read this news.. But sometime I wish not to let him see it.. I dunno... Urghhh!!

I'm having another appointment with my RE on the 28th Nov... I think it's time to do an IUI arrangements...

I will update you ladies when I have my menses back!

Xoxo