That's What She Said: TRANSFER DAY & #1 IVF FAILED

Hey ladies!

I really wanted to apologize on the long pause from this blog..

Mostly due to my work and the post egg retrieval procedure, I was having alot of discomforts

30th April 2020, Thursday 10.30am

So 5 days after the egg retrieval, we went down to do our Day 5 Blastocyst transfer.

I needed to have my bladder full before the transfer and it's a struggle! LOL!!

I was already bloated from the injections & progesterone, I needed to get my bladder full.

So we went over, sat down and waited.

At this point I was pretty convinced that it will be a success! But I wasn't sure if the OHSS symptoms might interfere with the process..

My Dr actually advice us to give it a skip and come back next month to do the Frozen Transfer.

But since she mentioned that I currently have 2 eggs which has reached early Blastocyst stage currently, why not just transfer 1?

And we did just that, feeling that the journey down to the dept isn't a waste..

So i was told to de-gown & sit down on examination bed while Mountain Bear sat at the side of the wall, being with me as we waited for the embryologist sucking the Blastocyst into a fine flexible needle and straight to our room..

So I lay down like a Turkey ready to be stuffed with fillings, with my legs wide open and the speculum is inserted, I saw my womb on the screen next to me.. I didn't knew my womb looked normal, just like the others.. LOL!!!

So our Dr slowly advance in the flexible needles into my womb & i could see it on the screen..

Then slowly she push the end of the needle and I saw a white dot being transferred into my womb..

"And that's the blastocyst.. That's your baby!" said our Dr.

I wasn't in pain nor felt anything when this procedure was done. So I lay down for 5 minutes while the nurse explained to me on my Egg count..

So she mentioned they collected 17 eggs, 16 were fertilized, 8 made it to Day 3, 6 were still growing till Day 4, and currently we have 2 eggs that made it to Day 5 Early Blastocyst.

So 1 is inserted to me, the other one will be frozen for my next cycle if I needed it..

I was pretty upset to hear I only had 1 egg able to be frozen. I couldn't complaint as I knew, I wasn't well prepared on prepping my body or eggs during the whole cycle..

So we went home and I rested. I was super super sleepy!!! I slept pretty much alot and Mountain Bear came over to me to check if i'm still breathing! LOL!

So I was suppose to get my blood test done on the 14th May 2020, but then on 12th May, I started bleeding.. I was super super super upset... but after that cry, I began to accept it..

Definitely it was hard.. I knew it.. I felt that the OHSS has something to do with it.. My body was constantly trying to recover.. And I was easily tired. But still, I need to get the blood test done..

So on 14th May, I went down and had the blood done at 8am.. At 12 noon, she called and said that my results were 3.0 which is a negative for BETA.

I took a break, Mountain Bear was very supportive of me.. He seen me going through every needles after needles being poke into my battle war belly site, the moan and tears, he was there to see it.. And I was pretty much.....................blocked up in my emotions................

Like I was.....................why............................why................................