...Ovulation Gallery Cd11 onwards...*daily updates*

Heyyy Ladies!

So for this post, i would like to collate all my ovulations test results that I took for this cycle.

Because it's a lil special one for me as I'm on Clomid cycle 1, timing and tracking is a must.. and alil of force is needed too.. lol!!

So here you can see the post from my own OPK results..

I'm pretty sure that I might ovulated earlier this cycle.. Maybe the surge starts on CD11 as showed below... I took this at 12midnight after holding my bladder for 4 hours.. lol!

This is CD11 within 5mins of reading (above).. Gets darker soon after (below)

Also, my CD12 test was taken from my FMU (First Morning Urine) which was not recommended as ovulation is best to trace from 2pm to 8pm daily.. Which I will gladly update later tonight once I've taken the test..

**UPDATE ON 19th FEB 2018**

Hey ladies! Here is another update on  my ovulation kit.. I have a strong feeling that I've ovulated on CD10-CD11 because as you can see from the progression kit that I've attached below, it seems that  the lines fading..

Hmm... I am just having this afraid feeling that I might missed it..

But then, I recalled we manage to cover the days as we did the deed alternate days during the period.

So as you can see, from CD13, it has faded.. Not sure why but yes.. So i thought that I might have drank too many water. so the test was diluted. So I tried checking it again for the next few days until i was so sure that the O'day has passed.

So as CD16  approaches, you can see that really.. There is no longer a strong bold test results..

So I can confirmed that I've ovulated on the CD10-11 with a strong abdominal cramps and some pelvic pain on going for 3 days.. Could it be that my eggs are maturing?? As explained by my Gynae & RE, most couple might need to take at least 2-3 cycles of clomid to have a successful conception.Let's pray we are the lucky ones.. Insyallah!!

Only way to find out is, 28th Feb 2018..

Waiting game starts now....

...Cycle Day 11 Updates...

Hi ladies...

So it has been a good week for me...

I'm recovering well from my Gastroenteritis symptoms very well and also doing well with the minimal side effects of Clomid 50mg (Round 1)

So today, I'm on CD11 (13th Feb)  and so far we have started doing the deeds since CD8 as per advice.Also it was recommended that I need to have it done every other day to ensure that I will not miss the O day.. Some say that when you are on clomid, you will ovulate later than earlier BUT some of us whose eggs are already large, it could help to trigger it to mature.. I really hope mine will too!! And I really hope with the first cycle I'm able to conceived. Insyallah!

What surprise me was, on CD10, I was having a mild headache which started around 5pm in the evening and it drags till 1am.. I was also feeling nauseous that felt better after I had an episode of vomiting. Manage to go back to bed after that..

As for today on CD11, my symptoms are feeling warmth.. Especially behind my neck and my back.. And I realised too that I'm having mild cramps more on my left side of pelvis with discharges..

Not sure if its the semen or its my cervical mucus.. as it's stretchy and sticky at the same time.. I didn't manage to do any Ovulation Prediction Kit for today as I was busy working but what I know is that I will be doing the deeds till CD17 as advice..

Feeling dehydrated as well at times, sleepy almost.. And my appetite isn't like my usual. Well i do crave for food but the quantitiy decrease that I need to share with Mountain Bear on it.

Ohhh but I love eating Baby Kailan Stir Fried with Garlic & Hao Chi Seasoning.. It's amazing... Veggies are like, YUMMMMM to me now... Lol!!

And also, I just started drinking about 120mls of milk today.. whole fat milk.. hehe.. and also my Folic Acid & L-Arginine as well..

Not sure when I will stop taking L-Arginine just yet... Maybe on CD21 when I have my Progesterone Serum tested.

I also felt "not myself" lately? I mean, there was once I had this feeling like "Who the hell am i???" at one point that I tried slept it out.. Like something was missing from me.. Maybe it could be the hormones that's playing it out.. And really, I am feeling introvert lately.. Less talkative and less jovial.. Maybe because I'm still recovering? Or maybe I'm just feeling tired from the Clomid symptoms..

So on the 19th Feb 2018, I will be heading down to the Dr's office to have a pelvic ultrasound done. Basically to check my PCOS and also I would like to request to have my uterus lining check as well and if possible the size of my eggs.. Hehehe..

Alright ladies! That's all for today..

I will definitely update you guys on the next CD symptoms if I have!

And I really hope this would help you ladies out at some point..

Don't have that feeling of giving up. For I'm very sure, God is the best planner and he will ensure that you will know that He is thinking of a plan for you too, sooner or later..

Have faith!

..Aunt Flo Arrived on the 3rd Feb 2018 + Clomid Starts..

Hey Ladies,

I'm recovering well and guess who decided to show up?

You guessed it.. Aunt Flo is here to brighten up my pants with her deadly splashes..

I was convinced that even with 1 dose of Medroxyprogresterone, I could induce my menses in the next coming 3 days... I'm like, was I feeling sick because I took 1 dose of Medroxyprogesterone???

I mean, could that worst & hideous symptoms that I had was caused by 1 tablet???

Nahh.... I was really sick then and taking it isn't going to cause those side effects that I had.. I might have taken something else that made me sick.. And I knew that I didn't take anything new in that period of time..

BUT SOMEHOW I WAS HAPPY!!!!!

BECAUSE I CAN FINALLY START ON MY CLOMID SESSION!!! 

Masyallah!! I was sooo sooooo happy that I somehow forget I was sad for awhile back then...
I really really thought that I had the early signs of pregnancy but it turns out NOT..

***(do take note that sometimes, I'm posting my blog; 1 week later than the actual incident post.. So I'm trying my best to recall the feelings and stuffs that happened)***

And after doing much reading, I decided to have my clomid taken at night.. Because the symptoms could be pretty harsh... And indeed I was having hot flushes and weird feelings in which I felt, if i were to be taking it in the morning, I couldn't continue working and concentrating well with all the side effects..

So I was told to take it for a course of 5 days from CD2-CD6...

And when I took my first dose, I felt emotional.. I was imagining that I really hope we can have our mini bear in me this cycle.. And before I swallow the first dose, I really pray hard to Allah to grant our wish to have a child this year.. And was witness by Mountain Bear as I swallow that tablet with some cold ice water..

IT HAS BEGUN......

So the next few hours, I wasn't feeling anything much or any different.. So i decide to sleep in...hoping to pass by the "side-effect" feelings and period...

Few hours after I was deep in my dreamland... I started feeling hot and a certain degree of uneasiness... The Aircon was at 23 degrees celcius and it was already cold enough to freeze my bladder.. LOL!!!

But instead, I felt hot, warm and discomfort generally.. I kept turning left and right, hugging and de-hugging mountain bear, changing every possible positions I could fit in on the bed...

Pretty much that's all that I had for the next few days till the course was over!!! Hot Flushes.. Constipated..Dizziness... That's all!

And today, it is CD8 today and we are suppose to do the deeds today!! Currently I am at work and will ensure that I follow the schedules to ensure my chances for this cycle..

Also, I heard about taking in some supplements to help with the conception periods..

One of them was L-Arginine...

I read a post from a lady who was going through the same infertility issues that she was also on Clomid and had included this to help with the uterus lining for a healthy conception and the lining act as a nutrient bed for the future child.. With thin linings, it's making the implantation abit more harder to stick onto.. So they advice to eat food that is high with L-Arginine and also Vitamin E & Folic Acid to somehow act as a supporting act for this blessing deeds.

So I just started my first tablet yesterday night after my dinner.
I will continue to take it till my CD28..

And also, I will continue taking my Folic Acids regularly and ensuring the time is not wasted.

Masyallah.. I was looking forward to this day with anxiety and excitement..

And keep imagining if i were to really conceived this cycle, Allahuakbar!!

Definitely I will update you guys on this..

And also on the 21st day of the cycle, I need to head down to the Doctor Office to perform a blood test.. If i could recall, it was for Progesterone Level..

So that's all for this post dearies..

Baby dust to all!!

..Admitted To The Ward With A Surprise 2 UPT lines?..

Or Evap lines??

Hi ladies,

So yes... what a year to start with!...

I've been surprisingly; down with a lot of sickness! Which is something I don't usually encounter. But this year? Masyallah... Dugaan babe..

I was admitted twice in the same month and it's not something I would let it go easily.. after the worst ever GE symptoms (??) I've gone through and loss 7kg in 3 days.. 

I was so blessed that my mountain bear was around when the incident happened.

So it was late night after I came back from work, I felt nausea & started with watery stool...

At from 11pm onwards till 3am I've been vomiting and diarrhea non stop to a point that I could no longer walk to my bed. Severely dehydrated with dizziness and heavy breathing.

I tried waking up mountain bear, but I didn't have the energy.. So i use my wedding ring on my finger; tapping against my wooden bed frame to create a sound to catch  his attention.

True enough it did and boy was mountain bear panicking seeing me. I swear I couldn't take it anymore. So he called the ambulance and off we went to the first hospital.

Upon arrival, the doctor was so sure that my symptoms could be an early impression of  pregnancy.. *Which I was not convinced at all*..

So they hook up with the drip and 2 bags of fluid. I was still vomiting even when I was on the drip. Manage to rest and was discharged after 2 hours!

I'm like, what?! I'm still having the symptoms and the Dr claims that the condition would improved as I rest.

So while Mountain Bear did the payment, I was vomiting away at the cab bay.. I never felt this bad... I don't have the control over my gagging reflex this time.

So got into the cab, and rest while waiting to reach home. Once home, Mountain Bear tried making for me some warm cup of tea, (vomited) cup of Milo (vomited) cup of Isotonic Drink (Vomited) Bread & Biscuits (Vomited) Fruits...(Vomited)....

Soooooo weak, I could barely speak and concentrate well.. I felt as if I'm about to die... When I looked into the mirror, i couldn't recognized that it's me..

So Mountan Bear was trying, "Let's go to bed, and see if it will be better?" So we did, and after a torturing 3 hours, Mountain Bear says, "Let's go to A&E at your previous workplace"..

Off we went and yes, I was admitted for severe dehydration. And the Dr wanted to do an xray for me (I have no idea for whatever reason but yeah, sure..why not?) so they need me to obtain a urine sample which I can't provide for them right now..

So after 2 hours later I manage to pee, and the UPT was done. They didn't mentioned to me what was the outcome but suddenly I don't need to do the Xray.. (huh??) yeah...

So we waited for our bed, and I was running a fever of 39.0 degree celcius.. Took oral Paracetamol  and I was still vomiting away..

Suddenly my old friend came by and she mentioned to me I'm pregnant....

I was like WHAT????!!!!!

She was like, "Yeah, your UPT test has 2 lines.."

She walked in and took the test and showed to me & mountain bear...

WE SAW 2 FREAKING LINES ON IT!!!

I had my jaw hanging down low and was not processing the details obtained.

I requested her to do another test with the same urine sample that I had given which she gladly did it..

I couldn't believe what I and mountain bear just saw!! Is it really mine? Or maybe it's just evap I told myself.. Trying not to feel super excited over it.. Afraid it would end up being just evap lines due to long exposure.

True enough... My friend came back with the 2nd results. It was negative. And she apologies on the possible "sudden excitement and happiness expression" that I might have had. 

I was relief somehow.. Knowing that with my current condition right now, might cause some harm to the child as I needed some antibiotics for my infection and hyperpyrexia... Which I heard from others, you should try to avoid such symptoms or even from taking antibiotics during conception periods as it affects the development of the child.

Even mountain bear was relieve to know that.. He is pretty concern on my health if I were to be carrying a mini bear in me.. And I understand why, we wanted the best for our child and ensure that I was really healthy to carry him/her in me.

Indeed, he saw me at my worst... I was really really really sick... I cried, worrying if anything were to happen to me, how is Mountain Bear going to manage? And vice versa if anything happens to him too.. Sighss...

So about 12 hours later I was admitted to the short stay ward where I was monitored..
I was still having hyperpyrexia (high fever) and still vomiting and watery stool still for the next 6 hours.. 

Was heavy on the IV fluids that I really depend on it for hydration as oral intake isn't doing justice this time round. I was so worried... So I slept for the next few hours before the Doctor's round was made...

I recalled too, that I had taken my first dose of Medroxyprogesterone to induce my menses for the next 5 day. But with my condition like this, I skipped the next 4 doses.. I couldn't think about anything.. I wasn't feeling myself these while.. I just felt soo hazy and "who am I, what's my purpose to live" kind of feeling now.. *I'm sure it's the dehydration effects*

Urgh... tummy cramps.. nausea & my sense of smell has increased dramatically and it was not a great one! I felt nauseous seeing food, even Mountain Bear doesn't smell like usual..

I was suddenly convince, could i REALLY be pregnant???

I tried to imagine all my favourite food and end up vomiting... Oh dear.... No.... No..... This is not ME....

But the only thing that kept me feeling better was boxes of cut fruits that I requested Mountain Bear to buy.. And the bananas... oh my goooodddd.... It tasted super delicious like I felt so better eating it... So gradually I was getting better...

My diarrhoea and vomiting has decreased alot and I was able to take clear and soft diet orally with minimal issues..

So I decide I could be better to be discharged. And sure did, at 6pm that evening I was discharged. Got my meds and was on 1 week of hospitalisation leaves..

Soon as we reach home, all i wanted to do was rest and sleep.. I don't have the urge to eat anything, even the porridges and meals that Mountain Bear has bought, I wasn't digging it..

And when I checked my weight.. I loss 7KG people!!!! In a freaking 2 days of dehydration! So i kept myself hydrate with Isotonic drinks slowly...

Here, I really wanna thank and appreciate the effort and kind gestures that Mountain Bear has showered me with the past few days.. He really took care of the house, he washed the clothes, clean the kitchen and dishes, ensure that I had my medications and meals, stock up the isotonic drinks, massage my backs and head... I LOVE YOU my husband.. I really do...

Alright there guys, that's all for now.. I really need my rest for now..

Please pray for my quick recovery as I really wish to be healthy.. Take care!!

Excitement for 2018...

I know it's pretty late for me to say this but....

This is gonna be a fantastic year I'm sure!! Just like any other years I had!

So pardon me on the pretty late updates on my blog..

Been drowning with tons of work and I've been admitted to the hospital for a very very bad intestinal infection. Pretty swollen intestines which cause me to have extreme pain which I tahan for almost 4 days straight and still off to work! Reason is because that my other workmate is back to her country for her Christmas & New Year Celebrations.

But the pain was so intense, I couldn't take it anymore and head off to my previous workplace A&E to get myself checked and oh wow, I need to be admitted!

And I was so happy because I could finally have an IV Pain killers to help with the pain cause basically whatever that enters my mouth gets rejected. I was blessed it was not appendicitis.. So stayed for 2 days and was poked 4 times by the vampires who wasn't skilled!! Urghhh.. I won't do that to my patients..

But this person.. *fuming*... Anyway.... let it go.. Let other patient complain or curse her.. I by all means, can't be bothered to do so..

So yes!! This year, what am I looking forward to???

This!!!!!

Yes!! Yes!!! Yes!!!!!!

The month has finally arrived!

I could recall the sadness and disappointment that I had when I received the call from the Doctor.. But yes!! That period is over and masyallah!!

Time flies like really really fast!

I was totally engaged and busy with work and life that I couldn't believe this day has arrive!

So now, all we need to wait is for Aunt Flo to arrive!

And yes, I am having those cramps & diarrhoea which usually is the normal signs of her approaching.. Hehehe!

So I have alot of list to include for this year but let's take it step by step, blog by blog.. Hahaha!!

Anyway, that's all for now..

My intention of posting this is to let you ladies know that I'm still active and will definitely update on any activities or news that I receive!

Till then! See you soon when Aunt Flo arrives!!